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Things that will make me happy

2012-02-20T05:54:00.006+08:00

Many many macarons
A cup of hot vanilla
A new bag
A cup of comfort and appreciation
A bag full of understanding
Swing me on a swing
Home made sushi
Roses
Swing me on a hammock
2 bowls of accomplishment
A seed
A pot
A green thumb
Cold stone strawberry blonde
A teapot of rose tea
Picking seashells
Whipped cream with chocolate sauce

my valentines day

2012-02-15T00:49:00.002+08:00

mini getaway

2012-02-13T14:26:00.004+08:00

Baking a rainbow cake

2012-02-08T05:37:00.004+08:00

My Loverboy's 21st

2012-02-06T17:33:00.002+08:00

black nose!

2012-02-03T02:06:00.000+08:00

A Shit Day

2012-02-02T01:50:00.002+08:00

I used to think that my father is the one with problems, now both of them. I think i know what is she trying to do when telling me all these and why. But i just can't accept how she choose to weave stories and so she'll get me to think differently about things. Even though i kept quiet but i was listening to what she said. At that point of time, i don't feel like doing any explaining for anyone anymore. She wants to talk shit that is not true, it's not my day to be righteous and speak up for anyone.

This weird day makes me feel very needy, it explains why i am typing a blog post now. Everything wasn't going my way. There's no one i can talk to at 2am on a thursday.

I'm just very tired and lost. I hope tomorrow will be a better day.

so tired

2012-01-26T12:09:00.000+08:00

One awesome day in Nicholas' Life

2012-01-21T01:30:00.003+08:00

So I woke up this morning, left for work...went to McDonalds..but this stupid uncle cut my freakin queue and cannot make up his mind on what he wanted to order...then i looked at my watch and told myself "SHIT NO TIME LIAO!!" so i looked up at the menu board and told myself.."argh...another time!"

so i continued my way to office....reached 5mins late....went straight to toilet to take a dump..SMELLs SO GOOD WORRR :')

was suppose to do "spring cleaning" in office today..but since im such a clean and neat person...i had no cleaning to do at all...so i took my unfinished work and continue to work on it instead of clearing my messy table...

i work really hard....(felt good) then stomachache again..so went to toilet and took another crappa...

when i got out of the toilet..i realised my office door was already locked and no-one was in anymore ( :O THEY LEFT ME BEHIND AND WENT TO THE MESS FOR CNY CELEBRATION :(..)

so i drove to the Mess and went for the CNY celebration..walked in only to realised it was a huge mess..there were hundreds of people just standing around...doing nothing at all...and i found my office people..i walked to my mdm and asked "so now what?" she replied with " lolz..actually i also no idea..thats why im just standing here"

anyways it was bs event and i left soon after..

went home to shower..and rushed down to Bukit Merah to meet my friend..i lost my way on the way there..because the rain was so heavy i couldnt see any street signs..

finally met up with my friend...followed his car to the showroom to see the Merc that we both liked..bla bla...too long cant be bothered to write..

then after that went to pick up missy bemmy...to get my car demodded :(

once that was done..we went to my place to get my camera and shit...

after that was done..we went to tampanies mall to get moar shit done...like buying memory card for my camera and bringing sick missy bemmy to the doctor...IMO $50 for a doctor is wayyy too overpriced..im a cheap bastard...but hey! at least shes feeling better now..so i guess its worth it.

yup yup after we were done...i went to her house to watch beauty and the beast...honestly..i forgot the whole story already..so it was pretty awesome to watch it again...brings back sweet memories from the past..ME GUSTA.....

erm.....ya....hmmm...err.....

I LOVE THAT MOVIE..

oh ya thats about it..gonna head to bed soon..

dont stay tune for anymore updates..this is my first and last..

2012-01-21T01:28:00.000+08:00

i love you

bem

Moleskine

2012-01-17T16:39:00.003+08:00

This is the second moleskine i bought. I love how soft the cover and paper feels.

PS3

2012-01-17T16:05:00.003+08:00

somehow i just feel alittle sad inside

2012-01-13T04:07:00.000+08:00

2012-01-09T20:19:00.000+08:00

2012-01-06T07:17:00.001+08:00

LET ME SLEEP

Diana's back

2012-01-05T17:27:00.002+08:00

Why don't you get it?

2012-01-04T11:24:00.009+08:00

WHY DON'T YOU GET IT?

I AM NOT HER.

How i wish i can get this message across to someone. But when i think of it again, what's the point? Ain't i the same as her if i do?

Why are you putting people around you in such difficult situation? Can you tell me why is it hard for you to speak your mind? I'm sick of your story telling, your hidden meanings of words. What i hate the most is you use others to pass these messages to attack me. Why do you manipulate people around you? What are you afraid of?

I know you can tell, i'm not very smart. I find it hard to hide how i feel, but that's not what you want others to think. When straight forwardly voice out my unhappiness of being involved in your stupid and meaningless mind games, i'll be seen as the complicated one. Because you act so well, twist it around, make me the villain. But isn't that the point? Make me the complicated, troublesome person so you can prove your point that i'm not an easy person to deal with.

I know you will not stop your stupid mind games, and i don't know how to stop you. If it matters so much to you, to control the people you love like a puppet. I admit lost, i don't even want to start it with you, because i can't bear to do it.

Dinner @ TWG

2012-01-04T03:29:00.005+08:00

My mom's favourite cream brulee

2011-12-26T17:26:00.001+08:00

at the end of the day, i could say i fought for everything i could... held on unconditionally. what about you?

2011-12-26T10:54:00.000+08:00

if your pride is more important than anything and anyone else in the world...

2011-12-26T10:04:00.001+08:00

this is how we become strangers again

You mustn't let a few bad times dictate

2011-12-21T11:46:00.003+08:00

Come along it is the break of day
Surely now, you'll have some things to say
It's not the time for telling tales on me

So come along, it wont be long
'Til we return happy
Shut your eyes, there are no lies
In this world we call sleep
Let's desert this day of hurt
Tomorrow we'll be free

Let's not fight I'm tired can't we just sleep tonight
Don't Turn away it's just there's nothing left here to say
Turn around I know we're lost but soon we'll be found

Well it's been rough but we'll be just fine
Work it out yeah we'll survive
You mustn't let a few bad times dictate

2011-12-21T10:51:00.002+08:00

how unimportant i am now

who am i to you, this is a question i always have to ask no matter who it is now

what have i done again

The little prince

2011-12-09T00:51:00.000+08:00

this is mimi

2011-12-01T02:33:00.000+08:00

snap

2011-11-29T21:08:00.000+08:00

2011-11-29T02:45:00.001+08:00

im jealous of my sims characters

2011-11-29T01:31:00.001+08:00

if only i can change myself completely

The Winner Takes It All

2011-11-28T00:30:00.002+08:00

I don't wanna talk about things we've gone through,
Though it's hurting me, now it's history.
I've played all my cards and that's what you've done too,
Nothing more to say, no more ace to play.
The winner takes it all,
The loser standing small beside the victory, that's her destiny.

I was in your arms thinking I belonged there,
I figured it made sense, building me a fence,
Building me a home, thinking I'd be strong there,
But I was a fool, playing by the rules.
The gods may throw a dice, their minds as cold as ice,
And someone way down here loses someone dear.

The winner takes it all, the loser has to fall,
It's simple and it's plain, why should I complain.

But tell me, does she kiss like I used to kiss you,
Does it feel the same when she calls your name.
Somewhere deep inside you must know I miss you,
But what can I say, rules must be obeyed.
The judges will decide the likes of me abide,
Spectators of the show always staying low.

The game is on again, a lover or a friend,
A big thing or a small, the winner takes it all.

I don't wanna talk if it makes you feel sad,
And I understand you've come to shake my hand.
I apologize if it makes you feel bad seeing me so tense, no self confidence.

scars

2011-11-24T18:49:00.001+08:00

It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, (protecting its sanity), covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But, it is never gone.

rose kennedy

tea time!

2011-11-23T01:18:00.001+08:00

Cookies & Roses

2011-11-22T00:58:00.001+08:00

my supper

2011-11-16T03:37:00.000+08:00

2months and 1day

2011-11-12T13:56:00.002+08:00

siri sucks

2011-11-10T03:35:00.000+08:00

when the night comes, it starts again

2011-11-03T23:15:00.002+08:00

starbucks

2011-11-01T14:57:00.000+08:00

;(

2011-11-01T03:53:00.001+08:00

I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside all I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do, you do, if you knew
What would you do

All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable come and take me away

I feel like I am all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands

Can't you see who's manipulating?

2011-10-29T19:10:00.000+08:00

Can we dance real slow?

2011-10-27T16:42:00.000+08:00

Bj

2011-10-27T01:48:00.000+08:00

TWG cakes

2011-10-24T17:53:00.000+08:00

we bought 4 of these, i'm going to get so fat

miss my 1inch of hair

2011-10-24T17:23:00.000+08:00

♡

2011-10-24T01:12:00.001+08:00

✦ Sapphire ✦

2011-10-23T02:54:00.001+08:00

朝朝暮暮的期盼永远没有答案

2011-10-23T02:18:00.002+08:00

????????????

2011-10-23T01:45:00.001+08:00

i don't understand why

everything changes after awhile

2011-10-21T19:42:00.000+08:00

and i don't like it

I can hardly wait to hold you, feel my arms around you

2011-10-11T22:33:00.001+08:00

twg

2011-10-11T22:02:00.000+08:00

我也不想。我又有什么办法？

2011-10-11T01:29:00.000+08:00

beautiful

2011-10-10T14:27:00.001+08:00

sick

2011-10-10T14:22:00.000+08:00

为什么我会一个人在这里

2011-10-10T01:13:00.001+08:00

lovely afternoon

2011-10-09T20:05:00.001+08:00

you make me the person i want to be

2011-10-07T13:59:00.000+08:00

westlife concert

2011-10-05T01:51:00.000+08:00

I'll hold on to it don't you let it pass you by

2011-10-04T17:03:00.001+08:00

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

because i rather be the one

2011-10-04T01:33:00.001+08:00

2011-10-02T17:34:00.000+08:00

5 hours

it's freezing cold and it hurts. I wonder if I ever cross your mind

2011-09-30T06:16:00.000+08:00

4hours

so angry and hungry

2011-09-28T02:35:00.000+08:00

new specs

2011-09-27T21:33:00.000+08:00

hdyrn768m6mj

2011-09-26T09:09:00.002+08:00

2011-09-22T19:16:00.001+08:00

I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you
All the impossible
I wanna do

I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does
You walked into my life
To stop my tears
Everything's easy now
I have you here

In a world without you
I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

a person who don't know how to show love

2011-09-22T18:57:00.003+08:00

it's my fault, i've been lost

Why the hell am i hungry every hour?

2011-09-21T22:01:00.001+08:00

I'm the definition of obsessive-compulsive, crazy love

2011-09-12T18:18:00.002+08:00

Nobody knows that I am a secret spy
I follow you home, careful to walk behind you
I climb up your tree and hide in the leaves
To keep you from seeing who I am
Call me obsessed, but I need to know your name
Your age, your address and where in the world you came from
It's silly to think that I'm on the brink
Of falling right off my rocker
Oh, I want to know
All about your mom and your favorite song
And why you hypnotize me
Well, I tell you what
I'm the definition of obsessive-compulsive, crazy love
Late after dark, your light is on upstairs
And I watch you dance as if you were Fred Astaire
A little finesse, a sparkly dress
And I could be Ginger Rogers
Oh, I want to know
All the books you read and your favorite sweets
And why you hypnotize me
Well, I tell you what
I'm the definition of obsessive-compulsive, crazy
La, la, la I'm like a firefly
La, la, la in the evening sky
I'm all aglow whenever I see you walking by
Oh, I want to know
If you ever plan to hold my hand
And why you hypnotize me
Well, I tell you what
I'm the definition of
Obsessive-compulsive crazy love

you have the most beautiful smile

2011-09-11T23:43:00.001+08:00

2011-09-09T21:00:00.001+08:00

light

2011-09-09T19:57:00.000+08:00

2011-09-05T17:35:00.003+08:00

tell me everything is ok, tell me everything is still the same.

all i need is this..

2011-08-31T00:47:00.001+08:00

in what way do i deserve all these all the time?

westlife is just amazing

2011-08-27T04:05:00.000+08:00

I always forget to bring thumbdrive

2011-08-25T02:02:00.000+08:00

This cat is my friend

2011-08-23T01:52:00.003+08:00

when i forgot to bring my keys and locked out of my house, this kitty will be there for me.

she is always under my house, i've seen her have kittens and they grew up. i think she's preggy with kittens again. :)

she is very smart, she understands when i ask her to follow me or show me where her kittens are.

she's my friend

i hate my braces

2011-08-22T01:15:00.001+08:00

21/8

2011-08-21T21:31:00.001+08:00

Crazy tracks

2011-08-21T13:33:00.001+08:00

Universal Studios again #2

2011-08-20T00:42:00.006+08:00

Universal Studios again

2011-08-18T03:35:00.000+08:00

i wish i can wear heels everyday

2011-08-17T01:57:00.000+08:00

Counting down

2011-08-16T17:30:00.002+08:00

I'm counting down to the day school finally ends. Each week felt like a year, each day felt like a month. Every single day the thought of giving up gets stronger and stronger. I'm confused and disappointed with a lot of things that happened.

Black Kitty Cover

2011-08-13T15:57:00.001+08:00

POTTERMORE!

2011-08-13T15:47:00.000+08:00

Pink Presents

2011-08-08T02:40:00.001+08:00

Hello Kitty watch

2011-08-05T17:56:00.000+08:00

Rickipoo got this from a gatchapon machine ~

Salad

2011-08-05T13:14:00.000+08:00

2. Hard Rock!

2011-08-03T02:16:00.001+08:00

1. Hard Rock!

2011-08-03T02:13:00.001+08:00

Fundraising for SaveJapanDolphins

2011-07-20T01:06:00.006+08:00

I am raising $100 for SaveJapanDolphins (The Cove). In Japan, Taiji thousands of dolphins are slaughtered as a tradition every year.

This is an article from earthprotect.com telling the truth about dolphin murderers:

Entire schools of dolphins are driven into a hidden cove after a prolonged chase. Once trapped inside the cove, the fishermen kill the dolphins, slashing their throats with knives or stabbing them with spears. The water turns red with their blood, and the air fills with their screams.

This brutal massacre — the largest scale dolphin kill in the world — goes on for sixmonths of every year. Even more scandalous, members of the international dolphin display industry take advantage of the dolphin slaughter to obtain some few, show-quality dolphins for use in captive dolphin shows and dolphin swim programs.

It is commonly assumed that Japanese fishermen hunt dolphins to supply a small minority of Japanese people with dolphin meat. But unlike the expensive whale meat, dolphin meat is not considered a delicacy in Japan, and the real reason the Japanese government issues permits to kill dolphins by the thousands every year has nothing to do with food culture. It has to do with pest control. As shocking as it sounds, some Japanese government officials view dolphins as pests to be eradicated in huge numbers. During a meeting at Taiji City Hall, the fishermen of Taiji admitted this to us. "We don’t kill the dolphins primarily for their meat. We kill them as a form of pest control," they told us. In other words, killing the competition is their way of preserving the ocean’s fish for themselves.

Most likely in order to push the food culture issue even further, the Japanese government recently introduced pilot whale meat to children's school lunch programs, despite the fact that the meat is tainted with mercury and not fit for human consumption. The Japanese government and the dolphin hunters do not warn the Japanese people of this danger, although the dolphin meat should be labeled as toxic. Much of the tainted dolphin meat ends up as counterfeit whale meat in Tokyo and other large cities.

To read more go to Japan Killing Dolphin Facts

Please do something to help them. Your donation will be used to support a group of people going to Taiji to rescue the dolphins. The support includes transportation, lodging, food, fish food, temporary sea pens so dolphins can be returned to the wild successfully.

Some funds will go to printing materials about the dolphin hunts to educate more people about this issue. For more info: www.savejapandolphins.com

You can donate directly to SaveJapanDolphins.com or join me/give me a birthday present by donating with me.

shalalalala shalala in the morning~

2011-07-19T16:24:00.002+08:00

impossible Project Films

2011-07-11T15:50:00.004+08:00

Bye Butter

2011-07-02T09:16:00.004+08:00

Butter was a timid hamster. She had very very poor eyesight and hearing.

But she was a good friend, she had been through everything with Cheese

until Cheese passed away. She protected cheese even though she's afraid.

i will always remember you

Vintage Polaroid

2011-06-29T04:19:00.001+08:00

Happy 5th year

2011-06-27T01:43:00.005+08:00

Best Food

2011-06-14T19:52:00.003+08:00

Hello

2011-06-14T18:19:00.004+08:00

that's my cum face for you

What do you read when you shit?

2011-06-14T18:12:00.001+08:00